and by gones will be by gones....

we had kell's surprise 30th birthday party last night....we had been planning it for about a month. and he had NO clue. it was awesome. however....he was a force to be reckoned with last night, getting him out to the location of the party. aye....i cooked him dinner first and then we were going to meet his sister for a drink....so i had to 'stall' after dinner until it was time for the party to start....well, one can only do this for so long with kelly....he was getting crabby, and evil...and almost to the point where he didnt want to go out at.all. but-we pulled it off, and he was completely surprised, and had a blast. his whole family was there, and that was great. i have known them forever. his sister casie and i used to be best friends. in fact, thats how kell and i first met, was thru her. i wont get into it all in this post, but the long and short of it is that we had a falling out and stopped being friends when kell and i got back together (before i was pregnant with emersyn). and then everything kell and i went thru when emersyn was born and there after, custody battle, etc and then getting back together--it put us--both our families thru the wringer. anyway, its been a slow process for casie and i especially, to mend our friendship. we were the best of friends. like bff. but in our heart of hearts, when push comes to shove, i love the girl with all my heart. and id do anything for her. we have finally moved forward, and put the past--in the past. i dont think our friendship will ever be the same, but perhaps itll be better, in a different, more grown up way. we both are 'adults' now, and we both have learned soo much in these last few years, with our own families and lives and thru what we've gone thru as a result of kelly and i's relationship. last night was the first night that we acutally talked about it- 'the past' and moving forward, casie and i. and that we missed each other and each others friendship. it meant a lot-to both of us. and was a big step for us--not just for her and i, but for all of us in her family. i feel like they have finally accepted me-and realized that kelly and i are meant to be with each other and how much we do love each other. and that we are willing to work thru anything to make our relationship work. and that we have the love to make it thru anything. so-it was a great night. kelly was smiles all night....he had a blast. im sooo glad he had fun. and i had a blast. i love that man so much, and i love his family. and its a huge weight lifted off my chest to feel like we can finally let by gones be by gones.....

the pics are kell and i. and the other one is casie and i..... :)