getting back in the swing of things

school starts this week. woot-woot. dont get me wrong, i love my baby jae, but always by the end of summer, i am a little bit ready to pull my hair out....she is a very schedule oriented girl. she needs structure. so going 3 months without that day in and day out structure starts to wear on us all by the end of summer.... and she is excited to see all her best girls at school. shes such a little social butterfly....i cant believe shes going to be in 3rd grade! its so crazy. i remember when i was in 3rd grade i learned cursive. and next year emersyn will be in pre-k. it just happens so fast. emersyn will be 4 sept. 21st. you know, people sometimes say, 'if you were to ask yourself ten years ago if this is where you pictured your life, is this where you would have seen yourself?' and i used to say, 'no way.' simply bc i never would have chosen to be a 'single mom' or to do things 'backwards'- i.e. have kids first before getting married, and while i still may not have CHOSEN those things, if someone were to ask me that question now, id say yeah, this is exactly where i see myself. im happy. im content. i have 2 beautiful kids. i have a wonderful family. i have a soon to be husband who would do anything for me, a relationship with God who gets i get stronger with every day. sure, i have done things a bit sideways, backwards and flipsided, but it has made me who i am today, and without those experiences, i wouldnt be half the person i am, or have some of the life experiences or people in my life. and can i just say--how much i love my two kids? man they are great. i love it when they laugh hysterically -not just giggle, but the full on belly laugh. jae loves to watch america' funniest videos, and we make it a sunday night ritual, and i enjoy this time soo much, mostly just to hear her laugh. emersyn gets a giggling non stop when she farts. and then she'll say, 'daddy did you farted'. it just melts my heart. and then when the most random times when emersyn or jae comes up to me and just says, 'i love you mommy.' and when jae takes care of emersyn. one doesnt realize how much goes into making a child. it is truly a gift from God. it is so easy to take my (our) babies for granted....hold them close, squeeze them tight, tuck them in at night.....


please continue to pray for my friends. pray for Gods healing hands. for His strength, His will, His comfort to my friends.