a new all time low...

well, i hit a new all time low. no, not my weight. ( i could only wish...) i had to ask my parents to borrow money. eh. sister jen, i know your reading and i dont want to hear it.... i thought these days were over, i know. now i really am feeling like jen lancaster. i swear, she is my long lost bff....we are more alike, every day....anyway, i really must be at bottom, b/c i refused to have to ask them to borrow money ever again, granted, its not 'a lot', just enough to get me thru, but still. it isnt ever a good feeling. i mean, im a grown up. im supposed to have it all together. i shouldnt have to depend on them anymore for this kind of stuff. and it kills me. i feel like crying. i really do. its not a good day today. i wish i could just like win the lottery or something. (i dont play though and we all know the luck i have...).

so, what have we learned class? i have learned that credit cards are the devil. they really are. they have horns and a pitchfork. and will and can ruin your life. thankfully, i have realized before i got in too deep....i mean, yeah its crappy i have to borrow a small amount of money from my parents and live off ramen noodles for the next 3 months, but i have learned.... grrr.

*sigh* i want to crawl in a hole. and not come out until all the debt is gone....oh wait, that may be never. gah.

itll get better, i know....i have been extremely rigid lately with my finances. i mean, extremely....like, riding my bike to work and i wasnt kidding when i said living off of ramen, $.13 a package.....cant go wrong....my sodium intake may go thru the roof,buying generic diapers (sorry dad, cant afford huggies right now) generic everything...but hey, it is what it is.... :/