heat wave baby

yep. it was a whopping 40 degrees outside today...absolute craziness-you know you live in wisconsin....when its 40 degrees, heck even 30 degrees, and you think its WARM out!!! ah! but, lets not get too excited here, they are calling for 'blizzard like' condidtions tomorrow-like 35 below zero, etc....what!? seriously. whatever. grrr. so much for that.....

so, its official. i am the meanest.mom.ever. according to jaelynn...she called gramma on me and everything....lets set the scene....i worked all day. came home. spent 1 1/2 hours making dinner-rice, chicken teriyaki w/fresh mushrooms, broccoli, peppers, onions. i was pretty proud. (i dont make 'big' meals that often b/c there is never time). now that kell's around more, i have someone to keep the kids preoccupied-so i can ACTUALLY make dinner....so in my mind, i had it all planned out....kell brings kid's home, sit down as a family, have a great dinner, no yelling or raised voices, clean up after dinner, spend time as a family, go to bed, etc....you know. thats the problem. i set myself up- i should know by now that my life = chaos. it is everything but planned. thats not necessarily a bad thing, but you know how it is when you have something 'planned' in your mind-when things go awry-it makes it even worse bc its so not what YOU had in mind...dinner was anything but. it consisted of jaelynn whining the WHOLE meal-about anything and everything....finally, after many second chances (i am the QUEEN of second chances), i sent her to her room and cleared her spot. i told her no snacks-that was IT....emersyn wouldnt even stay in her chair, so she too, was excused. she, however, was perfectly content-and went on her merry way to the toy room... agh. so, i sent not, one, but two kids, to bed without dinner. and now here i sit, crying, because i feel like such a bad mom....BUT, it was a HUGE step for me, too because i always SAY 'no snacks bc you didnt eat' and end up feeling bad-and give in. not tonight. im sick of it. i dont want picky eaters-who eat a select few things. so far, i admit, i often cater to the kids-bc its 'easiest'...but emersyn's starting to get picky-and jae is a grazer. no more 'nice mom'. i just want healthy eating habits for them....agh. the things i stress about. so that just set the tone for the night...jae whined and cried all night. she called gramma. thank you mom for backing me up....

so now i am sad. i guess im in one of those moods. seriously, life is great. it really is. but sometimes, i just need to cry and be sad-even if for no apparent reason. then i sat down and started watching 'intervention'-my new favorite show.... whoa. then i really started crying. major tear jerker. makes me soooo thankful that i have such a wonderful family and support system....i love you all. but i was peeved by the parents of this chic who they were 'intervening' on. so, the daughter is a lesbian. everyone who knows me, knows how i feel-i believe that in the eye's of God, homosexuality is wrong. HOWEVER, no sin is greater than the other. sin is sin. we are all just as guilty. and i have friends-and family who are homosexual. i may not share the same beliefs as them, and they know that, but i still LOVE them and respect them, bc that is what i am called to do. so my beef is this, her father, namely, was SOOOO against her being a lesbian, and constantly condemned her to hell, and cursed her and said some pretty horrible things because of her orientation and claims to be a 'christian'. but, he cheated on his wife and had an affair. and continues to live with his new girlfriend-unmarried. um. tell me whats wrong with this picture? i think of the verse that i heard in church yesterday in matthew 7:3; 'why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the log in YOUR eye'. what kindof example is he to his child??? he condemns her for her sin, but condones his own. the point is, NEITHER of them are okay. they are BOTH wrong in God's eyes. his ignorance made me sooo mad....agh.

so thats my bitch session for the eve. on a lighter note.....

had a GREAT weekend. got ALL my laundry done, folded and put away. played in the snow with the kids on saturaday. went on a date with kelly saturday night-had a FABULOUS time just being with eachother. went to church yesterday, went sledding with my parents and maddie. kell's sisters, nephew and brother in law came sledding, too. was a great time. then went to kell's moms and visited. played yahtzee. havent played that game in forver! fun, fun. slept SOOOOO hard. hard work carrying emersyn up and down the sledding hill-since she wouldnt let anyone but me carry her....kinda sore today. :) thats it....