starving....

ugh. i started weight watchers on wednesday. i am STARVING. we figured out the calorie amount for my points, and its 1300 cal/day. i have no idea how many calories i consumed prior to this 'diet'-and i dont think i want to know...but i feel like 1300 is staving myself. i know, once i get thru these couple days, ill be fine...but omg...getting there SUCKS! agh. i am nauseated. literally....i have to say though, i have reached a new awareness about my prior eating habits....they sucked. i cant poop-despite consuming crazy amounts of vegtables (they are '0' points)....my stomach is rolling...and i want to cry. :( thank goodness its almost supper time!

on another note....i took sampson to get neutered today....when we went to leave-emersyn and i, she got hysterical. it broke my heart.... she kept screaming, 'sammy-no, sammy'....aw. he made it thru surgery okay, so thats good.

getting ready for school this morning. woke up a bit late...oops. jae got ready, i got dressed in workout clothes, got emersyn dressed. on our way out the door-and went to get shoes for e....hm. interesting. how did the bedroom door get locked? 'oops' was jaelynns response. 'i forgot'. huh? what do you mean you forgot? we dont lock door in our house, just one of our rules-so how did it get locked in the first place, and second, WHY would you lock it, and then close the door. AGH! crap. oh well. e will have to go shoe-less. get jae to school, drop sam off at vet, go to walmart for couple groceries. call kell to let him know i am bringing e over so i can go to the y...no answer. (oh. suprise.) gr. screw it, ill take her with me. get to Y, no daycare bc the teacher is sick. great. this equals= no workout. dang it. go home. attempt to unlock door with bobby pin. no such luck. take the door knob off. yay. got it unlocked. put it back on-ummmm. not working. i cant get it. great. agh. go to do dishes. washing away. suddenly, my feet are wet. wet? huh? why are my feet wet? look under sink....crap. water everywhere. the pipe came disconnected. what a mess. things are NOT going well. emersyn trots in the kitchen...'uh-oh mommy'. tell me about it. call kell. can you PLEASE get your sorry butt out of bed and come over and help me????? thanks. (thank goodness for him...what would i do?) i mean, i gave it an honest effort-both putting the doorknob on AND fixing the sink. i did fix the sink actually, but it continues to leak. great. ill have to call my daddy. :)

kell is taking jae to a 'father-daughter' dance tongiht. how cute. am on call all weekend. yay. i hate it but i love it....i need the money. i hate the lack of sleep, love the time and a half.....