the devils drug

what? what did you say? so i cant hear. thats nothing new to those who know me....i was born with a high frequency hearing loss in both of my ears. i had hearing aids up until my freshman year in highschool. i say had, bc thats when i stopped wearing them. i had just moved to georgia-and the LAST thing i needed on top of being new was to be teased.....i also hated them bc i had top of the line hearing aids=my uncle is my audiologist. but these 'new' hearing aids made my voice very echo-y and i could never tell how loud or soft i was talking with them. agh. so i stopped wearing them. its not so bad-but i have a hard time with a)people who mumble, b)if your back is turned away-i.e.i cant see your face to read your lips, or c)the lights are off. i read lips. so anyway...

early in the week, i had this flu-check out previous blog. on friday at work, right around lunch, my right ear started to ring. ah, whatever. but it didnt stop. infact, it got worse as the day went on. and i felt like i couldnt hear at all out of that ear. it didnt hurt-it was just this really LOUD ringing in my ear. not cool. so i thought-well maybe ill wander up to my uncles office and ask him if its something i should be worried about.....well, i found my aunt-who is the manager of the day surgery center and she said he was out of town, but shed see if his assistant could help me out...so she sticks me in the booth and gives me a hearing test. sure enough-my right ear is significently less than my right. she calmly says, 'um, can you just stay here for a minute-im going to get the doctor'. wtf.?!? what is all THIS about? she says i need to see the physician NOW. okay. so the long and short of it-he says hes pretty sure i have what they call 'viral hearing loss'-which is sudden onset hearing loss. he also says-thank goodness you came in RIGHT away-if you wouldve waited until this weekend-more than likely you wouldnt get any of your hearing back in your right ear. proceeds to tell me that i only have a 60% chance of restoring my hearing to what it was-that is if i decide to go with the course of treatment. which is extremely high doses of steriods for 2 weeks. great. now im a nurse, so i know ALL about steriods and their side effects....he says, now its a really really high dose. so-and i quote 'your going to be pretty miserable for the next 2 weeks. you will be irritable, you wont be able to sleep, your going to be constantly hungry, your stomach is going to be very unsettled among other things. great. the good thing-you may get your hearing back.' wow. this was crazy. id never even heard of this!!! and i may not even get my hearing back?!? geesh. so he also says, if you have a real hard time sleeping-call the office, and we will call you something in. so i take my first dose when i got home last night. suprising enough-i fell asleep within 5 minutes of sitting on the couch with kelly. but. i woke up at around 1 am and was WIDE awake. could not fall back asleep. and was up for the duration of the night... called the 'on call dr' this morning-(which wasnt the dr. who i saw) and he says 'pfh. youll be fine', just take it in the morning.' whatever dude! dont worry-when im up tonight at 1 am-its your ars im calling. yep thats right. i hate ignorant doctors.

i actually have not felt too bad. just a tad, okay a WAAAy bit emotional. but thats also bc its 'that time'. the two combinations together = major breakdown. yep. had one today. but i feel better.... and i didnt sway from the diet at all. well, except for the twix i had. but i still stayed in my points range.... :)