are you kidding me?

so, the rest of my day....went kinda like this. down the tubes. eh.

j boss called me in the office and more or less 'reprimanded' me for being 'too quiet' and not 'being myself'.wtf. seriously? i cant win in this place. did you seriously just call me in the office to 'yell' at me for being quiet? so i am having an off day. none of my patients suffered. i put on a smiley face for them-and even managed to make it real for them, most of the time. i ended up crying hysterically in the office. you know, that kind of crying that you do when you do when you are doing everything in your power to NOT cry-biting your tongue or the side of your cheek? and then you end up crying that much harder? yep. that was me. gah. shoot me now. needless to say-it didnt help. but.....your nice words of encouragement did t. :)

and thank you steph, for the email. i needed it.

my mom and i then went to look at a possible reception venue-that was exciting. it was beautiful. i am fairly certain it is 'the one', but i will probably check out one or two other ones....

jae had a soccer game-which was the last thing i wanted to do, but i find that coaching these kids has become such a blessing for me....it gets tiring sometimes, but they put me in such a wonderful mood....i love those girls. and gosh, i sure do miss playing. more than i realized after we stopped to watch a match of older girls. but funny story-i drove to the wrong field......thats how crappy and preoccupied i was today....i showed up at the wrong field and ultimately ended up late for the game. im such a tool. so i flew (like 77mph) on the highway across town to get to the game....it was so bloody hot. and they got their butts kicked, but they made me feel better, just being with them. :)

and then i talked to kell for an hour. its the first day in over 5 months that i havent seen him!!! ahhhh! craziness!!!! :( he is my rock.