phew.

i just spent an hour reading all my fav blogs-catching up....i havent been on blogger in over a week, so i am so out of the loop. im in such a funk :/ but reading and cactching up was what i needed.

tuesday morning, around 4am sampson got up to go pee. so i got up, put my house coat on and trudged along to take him outside. he takes forever to go pee....what was weird was i felt suprisingly 'awake'. anyway, i was standing there for about 5 minutes when i had this really weird sensation come over me. i didnt feel light headed or anything, i just felt weird. like my head had goose bumps. its hard to describe. the next thing i remember, i was on the ground and sampson was jumping all over me, trying to 'rouse' me. i was somewhat disoriented, trying to figure out what happend, so i got up and walked in the house. i felt nauseated and proceeded to throw up and went and got back in bed. i laid there for about 5 minutes, trying to figure out what happened, did i pass out? did i have a seizure? so i called my mom and told her what happened. i started to get a really bad migraine. so i went back to bed and around 8am, i called the doctor to make an appointment. they told me i needed to go the ER. so-i did. i spent 8 hrs in the emergency room and after a long day of tests, they still didnt know what happend-syncope vs seizure. so they set me up to have an EEG the next day. i felt like crap and wanted nothing more than to get in my bed, but for an EEG-you have to be very sleep deprived (less than 4 hours of sleep and no caffeine for 24 hrs). so i stayed up the majority of the night and went and had my EEG wednesday morning. I havent gotten any results back yet-and until i do, i cant drive. aaaaaghhh. my MRI of my head was abnormal-no MS, but some kind of congenital defect. so whether or not that affects anything, i dont know, i havent actaully seen my dr. since before the MRI. so now i have to start seeing my neurologist again, which is probably a good thing since ive been getting migraines like once a week again and have this missing artery in my brain-but im sooo sick of not feeling 'good'.....i hate going to the doctors. and due to all my stress, ive been getting cold sores EVERY 2 WEEKS. LITERALLY-the doctor even put me on a daily dose of valtrex to help me from getting them.....enough about that though... just keep me in your prayers...

its getting cold. i think the fall/summer weather has left us for good. today we had a mix of sleet/snow mix at times. yuk. and i hate day light savings! its 4:30 and its already half dark out! something to be excited about-one year, one month and 3 days until our wedding. not that im counting :)today is my parents wedding anniversary. they have been married forever. i think 33 yrs?? crazy.i think i have baby fever. originally, kelly and i were going to wait like 5 or 6 years after we got married before having another baby-but i find myself wanting to try pretty soon after we get married for a baby. i dont want the kids to have too much of an age gap...plus, we were going to wait to have a baby until we bought a bigger house, but we decided that we are going to put an addition onto my house and just live here for a while and get out of debt. kelly is going to go back to school, i am so excited for him. he makes more money than i do, but he just isnt happy and his job is so physically harsh on his body that by 50 he'll have to retire-even being in as good shape he is in. they say that most masons die within 7 years of retiring-thats crazy. and the retiring age is much younger than the average job....he doesnt know exactly what he wants to do yet, but hes thinking criminal justice, teaching, nursing or a paramedic. i could really see him being an elementary teacher, but he doesnt know if he wants to go to school for 4 years....the other degrees he can do in 2 years, but teaching he has to go for 4. i just want him to be happy. we have grown so much in the last 6 months, its crazy. it makes me even more excited for where we are going in our relationship. i am sooo lucky. God has truly blessed me and my girls. he brings me so much joy, but also provides me with such strength. i cant wait to grow old with him.

well, i think thats all for now. hopefully ill get my test results back soon and be able to drive. such a simple luxury taken away-its driving me CRAZY!!!!!! especially since the weather is crappy out so we cant really do anything outside....anyway, God's in control, i trust He will take care of me and get me thru this...