it never ends....

the chaos of motherhood that is......so i go pick up jae-excited to see her (i always am) but from the moment she steps in the car-its 'i want, i want, i want'. we get home and she immediately starts to terrorize the dog-so now shes yelling-and the dog is barking... agh. my phone rings-its meg. how can you stand the noise and craziness she asks.....good damn question. i dont know...i DO know i am teetering on the verge on insanity. i do know id like to come home ONE night where it isnt constant LOUDNESS and craziness.....but-this is my life-and i find that i get crazy bored when the girls aren't around-at school or at grandma's.its a no win situation... then-jae comes and sits next to me on the couch-well, practically on top of me-and as nicely as i can say (and i was thinking outloud) i tell her she stinks. -note to self-dont do that again....immediately she acts like a teen going thru pms-and starts to cry. she says im mean. and how would i like it if she said that to me... i try to explain that i didnt mean it to be mean-but she needs to take a bath-like now. i cant win.....she then proceeds to tell me that if i say she stinks, well than so do i. :) so maybe i was insensitive, but like i said-i kinda spoke without thinking...and i didnt mean to hurt her feelings.....so-she has this christmas chain-remember those-the ones where you take a chain off everyday leading up to the day of christmas....well-she told me she wasnt going to do it-so there are still like 25 days left on the chain. today she proceeds to take like 5 off at once and says we need to do 'all these things'. agh. have i told you that i love being a mom? no, really i do. i really do. thats it.....funny note to close on-kelly calls and im kinda irritable....he asks if im crabby and i say yeah kinda, im pms-ing...he sayd oh boy-i think im gonna avoid you for a while.... :P being a women is great.