ouch all over.

well, the good news is, the marathon was great. the bad news, i had a PANIC ATTACK after mile one, which left me puking on the side of the road. and walking all of mile 2. have no fear, i got my groove back by mile 3 and made it the rest of the way.....but, back to the panic attack. i got a wicked case of the nerves before the race, which never happens. no matter how hard i tried to mentally talk myself thru it, it wouldnt subside. about half way thru the first mile, i started hyperventilating, thinking, 'oh dear, this cant be good.' and then the nausea hit....at the end of mile one, there was a ginormous hill, and that was it. i got to the top, and blech, all over the side of the road, in between trying to breathe. volunteers were trying to get medical help...i said, no im fine. GO AWAY. i felt like an IDIOT. agh. the nausea passed, but i couldnt breathe. so i walked. i was so mad. i could feel my eyes stinging-refusing to give in to tears, b/c i have worked so hard for these 5 miles! geesh. by the end of mile 2, i got myself back together, and off i went. the only problem i continued to have, was that since i had puked my guts out, i was sooooo thirsty.....and i didnt want to drink too much and get a side ache, but omg, i felt like i had sand in my mouth. needless to say, i made it in one piece. little disappointed in the outcome, but next time i will just take a xanax before hand. however, with my luck, ill probably pass out on the course....

i cant believe how tense i mustve been running, b/c my shoulders and neck are sooo sore today. its ridiculous. and my shins. i had shin splints in high school-but they havent bothered me since. im surprised they are bothering me today. the weather was perfect running weather.

so now im motivated and determined to do a half marathon. trying to recruit the sisters to join me. how fun would that be.

have ya'll heard of that 'new' exercise tabata? its supposed to be like the next best thing....supposedly it is like wickedly intense. im gonna do it. just not today. too sore. ill let you know how it goes.

im am liking the 12 hr shifts. i love having my 2 days off again. thats really nice. the days are long when im at work, but....the extra days off are sweet.

thats it for now. happy birthday alfred head. love you.