pathetic....

you know your from wisconsin when...40 degrees feels 'warm' enough to open your windows in your house and let the 'cool' breeze in. omg. ridiculous.

so ive been having issues with sampson....the dog is a holy terror. he eats everything in my house. everything. and dont get me started on his potty training issues. the thing is, he KNOWS what it is to go to the bathroom outside-ive crate trained him, and he does well, its like hes lazy and does it just to piss me off. seriously. hes great with the kids, and is the best dog to snuggle with-but i am at wits end. ive been thinking about possibly having to get rid of him, like to a daschund rescue, thats how bad its been. im torn, bc hes like my baby.....but hes ruining my carpet-he chewed up an ink pen under my bed-and stained ink all over. countless toys have been chewed, ive done the best i can with the pee spots-but its irritating. well. last straw was today. he decided his fate for himself. we went to take a nap this afternoon, me and the girls. i had been cleaning up after lunch and the girls were playing on my bed. jaelynn had set her glasses on the coffee table while they were rough housing. so after our nap, she couldnt find her glasses. we looked everywhere. it never dawned on us....sam had never tried to chew on them before. surely not. lo and behold. the f'in dog had taken her $200 glasses and chewed them up. but he didnt just chew them. he managed to pop the lens out of them, and chew the lens up (how he did this i dont know), and the ends completely off both of the glasses. he bent them all out of shape. it was crazy. this little 8 lb weiner dog. i wanted to KILL him. and jae has bad enough eyes that she HAS to wear her glasses pretty much all the time. the.last.straw. thats it. hes gotta go. i am sad, but i have no job right now. i dont HAVE $200 to buy a new pair of glasses. seriously. so, i am going to research some rescue centers, and find him a good home. i know ill cry, hes my little baby, but i know this is whats best at this time. *sigh*. my parents say im best with one of those invisible dogs-do you remember those? (i used to have one) my dad's comment when i called and told him what happend was, 'boy o boy, you sure have a black cloud over your head'.....aint that the truth....

my appeal meeting was yesterday. it was tough. i was extremely emotional-even though i wanted to be tough as nails....i have no idea what to expect, but i will know within 10 days whether or not i will get my job back. i have no expectations, it didnt go as well as i wanted it too, but i think its mostly bc the truth hurts sometimes, and it was hard to be there and deal with some of the issues that came up. but, as my dad also said, He (as in God) is trying to get my attention. there is something He has planned in all of this, and i need to trust Him. so, thats what i will do....its hard though, i wont lie...its a very vulnerable position to be in.