the secret to writing??

so my fellow blogger friend playful professional did a post about the secret to writing....that the 'secret' is that people want to know things they dont know (duh, right), not day to day things, ya know? does this make sense? she shared some pretty intense things about herself, and while for some it may not be a big deal, she felt better afterward, just to get it out there.....so, here goes some of my 'secrets'.....


1. there are some days i desparetly miss my old life. the one with no responsibility and the days when i could sleep in until 11am and 2 small children didnt depend on me and everything that i did or didnt do. and sometimes find myself feeling jealous when my friends or younger sisters go out without me-even though i really have no reason to be....that being said, i DO NOT regret or would NOT change anything in the world-but i think its a normal emotion for me to long for my youth, especially since i was a teen mom...

2. out of my 5 sisters, i have always been considered the one that looks the 'least' like the others, according to my sisters and others....i hate that. it drives me crazy when people say it bc i think my sisters are gorgeous and when people say that, i feel like they are insulting me- saying 'you are ugly, you look nothing like your beautiful sisters'.

3. i loathe roller coasters. they dont make me sick, i hyperventilate on them. seriously. i cant breathe. i have like a full-blown panic attack on them. actually, even on some water slides i do this, too, just not as bad....

4. i hate meeting new people. or talking to new people. it sounds snotty, i know. its not that at all. ive just never been good at starting conversations with people i dont know or faking genuine-ness. like that girl at the bar, who can just strike a convo with any random dude-not me, never has been, no matter how much alcohol may have been involved....

5. i was born with high frequency hearing loss. to sum it up-i cant hear. :) i actually have hearing aids, but havent worn them since i was a freshman in high school. i actually just got my hearing tested a month ago and am going to get new hearing aids, once i can afford them...

6. if i could be anything and not have to worry about money, it would be a makeup artist. crazy, i know....but those who know me, this probably wouldnt surprise them at all....i personally dont hardly wear any make up at all, and thats not its really about. but i am fascinated and always have been by make up and beauty. i did my sisters make up for her wedding and all her proms and homecomings. and i love it. to this day, it is still a passion of mine.

7. i hate seafood. it makes me gag. enough said. blech.

8. i have never been gambling. there are casinos all over here in wisconsin, but when i lived in georgia, it was illegal. its probably a good thing ive never been...i have an addictive personality, id probably just get myself in trouble.

9. i am afraid of dying. i am not afraid of where i am going after i die, i know im going to spend eternity with God in Heaven, but i am afraid of the process and the physical pain. i am also afraid of the pain it will cause my loved ones-even though they will have peace knowing i am with my Lord and Savior. does this make sense?

10 i have an obsession with biore pore strips. its probably unhealthy for me to be as attatched as i am to them. it says on the package to use 'sparingly'. heh. i use them about oh every 3 days. but they are sooo fun!

11. i dont believe in censorship. i mean when it comes to body functions like pooping and farting. last week, dr. g, one of my neurosurgeons walked by me in the hall as i was on my way to the bathroom to go poop and asked if i would get him a cup of coffee. first of all, i am not your maid (which i told him) and second of all, i said, 'i cant, im going to go to the bathroom to poop.' he looked at me and just bust out laughing. he thought it was the most hilarious thing ever. when i got done, he was dictating his note, and i leaned over his shoulder and said, 'would you like me to get you a cup of coffee?' pause. 'i washed my hands.' and he started laughing again.

12. i think i daydream/fantasize more than the average person. i feel like i am always thinking about winning the lottery or building a big house, or losing 40 lbs (ha). it seems my mind is anywhere but here.

13. i miss georgia soooooooo much. so. much. i ask myself if this would be the case if i lived there or is it just one of those 'grass is greener' type things....but i just love that place so much. its not just that my friends are there, its the PLACE. the city. i love it. everything about it. the job opportunities, the beautiful living area, the closeness to atlanta, the closeness to the mountains, the closeness to the ocean. i have conceded that i will probably always be here in wisconsin b/c to kelly, this is home, and thats okay, but gosh i miss that place.

14. i am doing my first 15K nov. 30 and am super pumped. and nervous-especially after my panic attack in my marathon relay...but ive been doing 3-4 times a week 5 mile runs and can finally start to feel and notice a difference again in my body. i love getting to that point....

15. im slow. this is no surprise to my family members...i just like to take my time is all. i must say though, since having kids, i have definately picked up the pace. in high school i wore my hair in a pony tail every day and it took me over an hour daily to get ready for school. doing what, i have NO clue, but yes-over an hour. now, i get up an hour before work on a school day to get myself and 2 kids ready, including jaelynn ready for school and leave 20 min before i have to be at work. it can be done.