i resolve.....

i hate resolutions. but still make them. i think we probably all feel the same way about them....we hate them, but we still make them.....vowing to try a little bit harder to do this or that or quit this or that and the list goes on. and by next week or month, old habits die hard. i never really understood the point of new year's resolutions-i mean, why do you have to wait until the new 'year' to make a change? why not today or tomorrow? but, i still fall into the same madness everyone else does. its maddening. i refuse to do it-but find myself resolving to do this better or that better and so forth. so here goes nothing:

*most importantly, i want to be a better mom. i actually try to do this everyday. some days are definately easier than others, but sometimes i find myself not wanting to put forth the effort to DO anything. sounds bad, i know-but as you all know, i am a pretty darn honest person. so shoot me. i want to put down the vacuum cleaner or toilet brush when the girls ask me to come play and just play. i can always clean later. i want to worry less about the silly things and focus more on THEM and our relationship as parent and child. especially jaelynn. she is going thru so much with kelly and i getting married and accepting that fact that shawn (her dad) isn't there for her, and it is so critical a point in her young life.

*i want to be a better 'wife'. okay, well we arent technically married yet, but you get the jists of it. i want to whine less about stupid stuff and not pick fights just to pick fights. i want to appreciate kelly more. i want to love better.

*i want to have a better attitude at work. enough said. i get whiny sometimes. :)

*i want to lose 20 lbs. there is always a weight resolutions. ALWAYS. but thats okay. if i dont lose 20lbs, how about looking smoking hot in my wedding dress? ill take that.

*i want to get into grad school. and if i do, i want to do well in grad school. ive always poo-poohed school. im ready to take it seriously.

*another most importantly, i want to stay on track with God. because without Him, i cant go anywhere. I want/need to keep Him central of all things.

hmm. i could go on and on and on with this list. seriously. but i think thats a good start for me. what about you? what have you resolved to do this year in 2009?