not my week.

agh. im in a funk. :/ not a blogging funk. a funk in general. im getting over having a migraine for 3 1/2 days and work has been stressful, and im feeling sorry for myself. well, not even really sorry for myself, just in one of those moods where i want to cry-and have really not reason to cry, ya know? its kinda like i feel like im being ganged up on in a few different areas of my life and i just dont want to stand up and deal with it right now. i simply dont have the energy. im exhausted. physically and emotionally. i kindof want to just lay in my bed and wallow. i know, im being a baby....but do you ever just have these moments? to top it off, bed time for the kids has been a battle lately and its like at the end of a looonnng day, you just want to put the kids to bed and have your quiet time....and it hasnt been happening.....out of no where....emersyn has decided to go on strike. and jaelynn cant sleep all the sudden. so my 'quiet time' in the evening, the time when i get to blog, or relax, has been stolen. how dare they! ;) i know, the throes of parenthood. its a stage, i know. i am just a bit overwhelmed, is all.

and after giving my florist my 'budget'-who is also my cousin, even with the 'family discount'-i am not going to be able to do the things i want to do, so that is disheartening. i just have so many ideas of what i want my 'day' to be, and ive already had to compromise a lot b/c of our strict budget, and it keeps dwindling down and down, and i just feel like soon its going to be nothing like i want it to be b/c we cant afford the things i 'want'.... :/ trying to keep a positive attitude and think of areas to save, etc, but hard to not be bummed out...

i need a vacation. ha. whats that?

i start my new job in 1 1/2 wks, so thats something to look forward to, since my paycheck has been almost less than half of what it usually is b/c of them cutting my hours d/t the poor economy and us not having a busy surgery schedule lately..... eek! so at least ill be making a more steady income (yay!) and more money (double yay!).

still havent heard anything about grad school....its only been 2 wks since i applied, but it feels like forever already. keep your fingers crossed and say a prayer for me. :) and for a better week.... i could use it.