hurts so good.

so. spring is just around the corner. for some of you southerners, it has already come. you suck. i mean well, im just jealous. this week, i cajoled kelly into becoming my 'personal trainer' of sorts. i never realized how much i 'move' at work. being off, i havent eaten more, but i certainly havent been moving....im getting a bit fluffy. humpf. i have a wedding dress that will be coming in in about ohhhh 2 months and im a bit nervous about trying it on.....granted....my wedding isnt until december--but its time to start the ol' running regimen back up. ive been on hiatus since november. the problem is im, i have always run at a snails pace. i want to get a bit faster. so, i enlisted in kelly. hes never run. ever. so i figured if i run with him, ill get faster. i cant believe that he actually agreed to do it with me!! kelly was convinced that he wouldnt make it around the block, but i knew otherwise. i was more concerned about myself....kelly works out hardcore every day-granted with his surgery, he hasnt been able to go balls to the wall, but he still is in awesome shape. so i said, we'll just do one mile. (i wasnt sure id be able to make it at his pace). so, out we went. we got a quarter of a mile, and i was ready to quit. seriously. i stopped. i threw my hands up and out of breath said, 'i cant breath. i gotta stop.' kelly, of course, being the greek god he is....said, 'are you for real, or are you just saying that, lets go.' i am super competative with him. i dont know why. when we play the wii, i cant stand losing to him. ill stomp my feet and demand a rematch. so i took a gulp of air and started running. cursing him the whole way. when i started to slow down, he began to run backwards. oh.no.he.didnt. that just pissed me off. so i sped up. jerk. at the half way mark, he started running next to me again. he put his arm around me and pushed me a bit faster. i started to breathe easier and get my rhythm. i found that i liked his arm on my back every time i started to slow down....b/c it kept me going.....we got to the stop sign at the 'finish' point and for a brief moment, i thought i was going to puke. eh. and kelly says, 'come on, lets sprint home'. aaaaghhhh. and he grabbed my hand, and off we went.

so, i made it. the first run was a success. and kelly was great. i LOVED running with him. and greater yet, he LOVED running with me! the little terd, he wasnt even tired. and was hardly breathing hard. grr. aside from the diagnosed 'exertional migraine' i got afterward, it was good. i was a bit sore the next day, kelly was a lot more sore than i was. hehe. we went again, but that run was a lot harder albeit 45 mph winds and 20 mph colder. and another, worse exertional migraine. i acutally had a neurologist appointment friday, which i was thankful for, bc ive never had these kind of headaches before after running. granted, im out of shape, but ive been more out of shape before. my neurologist said that they are more common with migraine sufferers and that if they dont go away as i ease into my regimen, there is specific medication they can put me on for this. hopefully as i get back into shape, theyll go away... i forgot how good running makes me feel....physically and emotionally....

please...if you are a believer in prayer, please continue to pray for my job situation....i still havent found a job. its hard to stay positive and remain faithful to God when its constant dead ends....i havent given up on Him by any means, i never will....i just dont know how long i can do this....its so hard not knowing what He has in store for me...